Laughing stock

Let me see the shine again, make me feel the hope.
Let me be high again, let me have some more dope.
My life is a misery, just let me live aloof,
Laugh at me everyone, He made my life a spoof.

Pain I feel in the heart again, makes me wonder why,
Does this pain not fade away, with every tear I cry?
Waiting for the satan's face, watching the moving clock,
Give an end to my life, a disappointment, a laughing stock.